Some background. Our sex life had been dead for over a year due to my inability to get a full, hard erection. I could achieve length, but not firmness. My wife did not want me to try Viagra. Yet I still had all the urges and desires, so I fell into a habit of regular masturbation. I love my wife, and keeping myself satisfied while doing nothing for her needs made me feel more and more guilty every day. I thought that if I stopped masturbating, at least I could stop some of the guilt. But I knew that I could not just plain stop on my own. So I went out on the net looking for chastity devices – what they were, how they worked, psychological impacts, etc. I read a lot of stuff from the woman’s viewpoint, and a little from the man’s. Because of the belts and harnesses, and the fact that I would have to be able to perform normal body functions, most devices seemed to be in fact short term, especially from the point of comfort and wearing under clothes. Then I found the CB 2000. It looked just like what I needed. The problem would be how would I explain the purchase to my wife, and have her become the Key Holder. She tends to be submissive in sexual matters, and I doubted if she could become a Key Holder like those in the articles I saw posted. But I thought that if I would tell her the entire truth about my masturbation and my guilt, and give her some material to read, she might come onboard. I printed out various articles I had read and put them aside for the right moment. Then I ordered the CB 2000 and practiced what I would say when she discovered it locked on me.
September 19, 2002. The CB 2000 came today at 1:30. By 1:40 I had it on. I quickly found that the 1 7/8 “A” ring seemed too loose. While I could not get the device off, I could easily pull my cock out and have it free. Next I tried the 1 5/8 ring. After a few hours it felt a little tight, and I tried the 1 3/4 ring. I found that I could still get my cock out, so I went back to the 1 5/8. With a great deal of effort, I could I could get my cock out, but not back in. Very soon I discovered the catch 22. The tight ring made my penis more sensitive and likely to expand, but the cage kept it small and encased. My wife was totally unaware of what I was doing. In the evening she went to choir practice. I went with my sister to buy her a new car. All the time we were discussing things with the salespeople, I couldn’t help being reminded of my chastised condition. When I got home I could stand it no longer. I got my vibrating wood sander and held it against the cage. What an orgasm. But then the guilt returned, as I realized that all I had done was to find a new way to masturbate. At that point I knew that I had to get my wife involved, and I came up with a plan. But first I took off the cage and cleaned myself of the mess. Then I got some black plastic electricians tape, cut pieces of it into strips, and wrapped the strips around the part of the cage right next to the locking pin. Wrapping made thick rings that made it harder for me to pull my cock out of the cage.
September 20. Last night was a trip. I woke several times. It’s part of a man’s life to have nocturnal erections. I still have them, although I don’t get very hard, I do get long. Each time my cock was trying to go long the cage stopped it. It was a new experience to be able to do nothing, as the insidious cage wouldn’t even let me touch my penis. And my penis was fully sensitive and wanting to be stroked. I found if I would get up and go sit on the toilet, eventually I would urinate and my cock would shrivel back to its flaccid state. Today was uneventful. I did attend the annual banquet of my golf league. Everything and everyone was normal – except me. My plan is to wear the chastity for a period of time without telling my wife, so that when I do tell her she will see that I appear completely normal to those around me and that no one could guess that I am wearing a locked chastity device. It became apparent to me that every day I would need to wash myself around the device and dry myself completely. Then a little Vaseline to the back of my scrotum to prevent painful chaffing. I am finding that the articles I have read are true. I do feel more romantic and tender toward my wife.
September 21. I spent the day doing normal things. Nothing much to note. I did do some walking and a small amount of bike riding. The business of the cock cage against a bicycle seat made for some interesting adjustment problems though.
September 22. This morning I was the Ritualist at church. I sat up front, next to the Pastor. I walked to the pulpit and stood behind it to lead the congregation in joint prayer and to read the Bible lesson. See – you can do anything while wearing the CB 2000 chastity device. Coffee and snacks after the service were normal.
September 23. We went to a friend’s house for dinner, and then played cards. Again, everything was normal, except for my awareness of my locked condition.
September 24. Tuesdays are bowling night for the both of us. We go to different establishments. Our son is on my team. While bowling I seldom thought of the device I was wearing. I do have to be careful when I sit down. The device causes the balls to hang lower and put them in position so that you could sit on them if you are not careful.
September 25. We are leaving on a five-day camping trip with our camping club. I plan to tell my wife everything when we get home. There will have been eleven days of experience by then. Before we left I gave my her the three keys that came with the chastity, and told her to put them where I could not find them. She asked what the keys were for, and I said that I would tell her when we got home on Sunday. Then some kind of expression crossed he face, and she silently took the keys from me. Later at the campground she started to cook dinner. As we used to do, I started kissing and blowing on the back of her neck. Without me thinking what the consequences of that would be, she did what she always used to do – reached behind herself and did a light grab on my cock and balls. Imagine her surprise when instead of feeling my soft cock, she got the hardness of the chastity cage. So right then and there I told her everything. My masturbation, guilt, net surfing, buying the chastity, printing the articles etc. She seemed almost pleased, because she appreciated the fact that I was concerned about her needs. She laughed when I dropped my drawers and let he see the CB 2000 in place. Then she realized that the keys were 140 miles away at home, and she and I would spend the long weekend with me quite locked up. Later we went to a friends trailer to play cards and didn’t get back to our unit till midnight. No problems, and my wife was pleased at how normal I seemed.
September 26. Today we went for a long walk, and then drove to a nearby state park. I could tell that my wife was watching me and checking to see if there was any indication of what was in my pants. There wasn’t.
September 27. A short bicycle ride proved that I could do that too. There was a problem in getting myself set on the seat of my mountain bike. But I soon got use to that. In the evening twelve of us went out to dinner. Again, it showed that you couldn’t tell my chaste condition.
September 28. Today we made a three-hour walking tour of a museum of 18th century replicas and shops. Again, no problem.
September 29. Back home I asked her to wash my genitals and clean the CB 2000. She did pretty well on her first try at getting the device off and on. We used antibacterial dish detergent on the cage. I had some problems with chaffing caused by the “A” ring, but a little Vaseline took care of that. I now wash my balls and as best I can around the cage area every morning, and put Vaseline over any chaffed area. This completely stops any serious discomfort.
September 30. Last night I thought I would finally be allowed to ejaculate, to have the orgasm I have been hungering for. Ha! I kissed her as the French taught us – deep and longing – and she responded fully. I caressed her entire body, especially her crotch. I nibbled at her nipples – played with her clit – used the cock shaped vibrator with the clitoral stimulator deep into her. I brought her to shuddering climax with moans and screams that were hardly faked. Yet all I got was a tender “Goodnight dear”, and a deep little chuckle. She had played with my balls and felt around the CB 2000′s cage. She could tell that all that kept me in check was that insidious cage. Then she said “maybe tomorrow she I’ll clean you, and give you a little fun”. During the day I had some serious pain where the end of the cage rides into the scrotum. I took and old sock and cut about four inches of the top end and put that around my balls so the end of the cage wouldn’t dig into them. Another problems solved.
Continued …
Originally posted 2009-04-12 19:46:29.
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